so I did the only thing my stubborn heart would let me do — I saved, every month, for the dream I’d forbidden, and I prayed I’d leave you brave enough to finally chase it. Make the bright thing, Eric. Paint the loud paintings. Wear the red suit every day if you want to. Your father was a coward about color his whole life. Don’t be like me. Be like you. You were always the best of us. I was just too afraid to say so.”
My brother sat down on
